Out of life.
Shawn Mendes Imagine.
I stood alone as my eyes searched through the luggage making its way towards me. Finally, I see my black and white chevron suitcase in my view. I walk up and grab it but at the same time, someone else grabs it as well.
"Oh sorry, I thought this was mine." Says a female voice.
I turn my head to the side and look at the girl. She looks about 13 and she was wearing a magcon hoodie. She was awkwardly laughing until she looked up at me and noticed who I was.
"Oh my god! You’re Y/N?!?! Oh my god!!" She yells.
"Shh!" I laugh looking around to see if anyone heard her.
"Oh my god! We were on the same plane! Oh my god! I love you! Oh my god! Are you here for magcon? Wait.. Oh. My. God. ARE YOU SURPRISING SHAWN??"
I looked at the girl before me and I only smiled.
"Yes." I answer. "But you can’t tweet about it and you can’t tell anyone. Please promise me that? I don’t want anyone to find out. It’s a surprise."
"I promise, I promise! oh my gosh! This is amazing! I can’t believe I’m literally talking to you right now!"
I later found out that her name was Emily and she flew to LA just to come to magcon to see the boys. That’s what really made me smile. Fans like her are who make a difference in the boys lives. This weekend is going to be amazing.
I walked through the hallways of the hotel trying to find my room. Magcon was starting in a couple of hours so I had time to shower and get ready.
After everything was finished, I looked at the finished product in the mirror. I actually thought I liked pretty decent. My hair was curled, my outfit was on point, and my makeup didn’t make me look like a whore. I could say everything turned out as planned.
I grabbed the roses I was going to give to Shawn and made my way through the hotel. You see, Shawn always surprises me with roses. Whether it’s my birthday or him just trying to show his love for me. So today, I thought it would be amazing go surprise him this time.
As I was in the elevator, I got a text from Shawn.
Hey babe! I wish I was there with you right now but I just want you to know that I love you so much and happy 3 year anniversary baby! Can’t wait to see you again!
I smiled and replied a cute reply before exiting the elevator and heading towards magcon. I went through the back way like the managers had told me to and ended up backstage. Magcon started about 10 minutes ago but they were doing meet and greets first. So I waited until I heard a familiar voice.
"I just don’t see why he would even do that to her and it’s so stupid that we-"
"Mahogany!" I yelled. She turned around and her eyes got wide.
"I’ve missed you so much!" I say as I ran up to her and hugged her. She didn’t really hug back, instead she just stood there in shock.
"Y/N, what are you doing here?"
"Well it’s me and Shawn’s 3 year anniversary so I was gonna surprise him." I smile, pointing to the roses.
"Oh that’s so sweet." She says, but I couldn’t tell if she was happy to see me or not.
"Are you okay? You’re acting weird."
When I said that, it was as if something clicked inside of her.
"Oh yeah, I’m totally fine! I’m just so happy to see you that’s all!" She says, hugging me tightly.
Why was she acting so weird?
She looked behind her and she forced me to turn around.
"What is it?!" I ask.
"N-Nothing, i just… Uh… You look better in this lighting."
"Mahogany, seriously what’s-"
"Let’s go on stage!" She pulls me through a door and up onto the small stage in front of everyone. All the fans screamed, realizing that I was here as well. I looked around and saw the boys sitting on the ground. Their eyes got wide as well.
"Where’s shawn?" I ask.
They all looked at each other before Matt spoke up.
"He’s in the… Bathroom! Yeah the bathroom."
"Oh okay…" I sat down next to Aaron and he looked at me apologetically.
"Aaron?" I ask, sternly.
"You would never lie to me, right?"
"No, of course not."
"Then tell me what’s going on."
"Nothing’s going on, why would you think something’s- okay something’s going on."
I knew aaron could never lie to me. The boy is just too sweet.
"But I can’t tell you."
"What do you mean you can’t tell me?" I question.
"I just… I’m sorry." He stood up to walk away when he tripped over Jack J and fell into a curtain. The curtain ripped and fell revealing the entire backstage type area. That was when my heart broke into a million pieces. That was when my whole world turned cold. That was when I saw Shawn with his tongue shoved down some girls throat.
If you were to look at me in that moment, you would say I wasn’t phased. But if you were to take a look inside of my body, you would see my heart breaking, my brain turning to mush, and my nerves going absolutely insane. If you asked me how I felt in that moment, I honestly don’t know what I would tell you. Everything hurt.
The crowd went silent. The boys went silent. Everything around me was silent. I just kept watching. Shawn had pulled away as soon as he realized what had happened. His eyes met yours and for a split second, you saw anger.
"Y/N?" I hear, sweeping me back to reality. I look to whoever had said my name. It was Mahogany. She walked over to me. Everyone’s eyes on us.
"Y/N?" She asks again. And just like that, everything hit me like a million bricks. I suddenly realized that everyone knew. No one warned me. All of the people who I thought were my friends lied to my face. And the one I loved just stood there.
Her hand gently grabbed my arm but I pulled away.
The humility I was feeling in this moment was unreal. I never thought I could ever feel like this. But then again, I never thought shawn was the type of person to do this either.
I looked around. From the crowd, to aaron, to taylor, to the rest if the boys, and finally, I looked at shawn. He was just staring at me. He didn’t try to explain, he didn’t try to apologize. He just stared.
I picked up the roses with shaking hands and walked over to him. His jaw clenched as I got closer and closer. Finally, I was standing only a foot away from him.
Handing him the roses I say, “Happy 3 Year anniversary, Shawn.” Before walking away. Out of his life, out of their lives, and out of my own life.
This actually made me cry… really hard. ugh what did I do…
so a part 2 or